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Well, this week is Missions Emphasis Week here at ol' UMHB. It's been pretty good, and last night was a extremely good. We watched an amazing movie called "Invisible Children" about child abductions in Uganda (Click here for more info). It totally broke my heart, not only for the unbelievable hardships these children endure, but especially because of the hardness of my own heart.

I realized anew just how filthy I am both mentally and spiritually; how many liberties I've taken to wander into repetitive sin all in the name of grace. It was sickening to think of some of the sins I commit daily in light of the glories of God's salvation. How can I be so double-minded and hard-hearted?

Revelation 3:1-2:
"And to the angel of the church in Sardis write: 'The words of him who has the seven spirits of God and the seven stars. " 'I know your works. You have the reputation of being alive, but you are dead. Wake up, and strengthen what remains and is about to die, for I have not found your works complete in the sight of God.' "

This is me! I put on a face everyday as I walk about the campus to my "Christian studies" classes and pretend that everything's well and good inside. And it's killing me. I want to be woken up. I want so bad to be stregthened. And this is what I said to God last night. And guess what I found this morning at desiringgod.org (click here)?

If you do not burn for God with the zeal that you long for, are you willing to make some experiments with high-dosage, extended-time, prayer-driven bible meditation?

-John Piper

So, I ask myself if I really want this or is it just another selfish desire to be thought of as good and clean? I think I really want it.